Updates

-Met Vincent (Master Jedi Obiwan) & Dylan (padawan)
-thrown out with no wallet no handphone to “make money out of nothing”  3 times with no sucess untill the last 5 mins of the 3rd try, venues were – 12am @ street near pj Hilton, Midvalley & Low Yatt. Finally earned My 1st RM10.00 out of nothing. thanks to Ryan
-Listened to a sermon title “Jesus was not poor”
-Started 5 Facebook groups
-Establish contact with Ru Shi
-Gonna anchor Malaysian Gamers Network.
-Haven’t spoken to kes for days.
-Had my brain running around everywhere and pumping adrenaline
-Father settled house loans
-Cousin Yew Kit sponsored my net for 6 months worth RM 486.00 and pass me a cash of RM 500.00 to stay afloat
-Finally feel like i’m coming out of my dessert days, found a cause/idea/mission worth pursuing
-Having alot of my personal thrology and “misconceptions” of belief challenged 
-Holding tight to God
-Overnighting at Master Jedi’s place
-Found the meaning FUCK : Fornicating Under Consent of the King
-Met Yap from TGV

Illumination

As Per The Attached

Chinese New Year was not as i would have wanted it to be… could have planned it such that my days with my cousins be a more meaningful one. Oh well the world is full with people with just good intentions.

“O Lord, may i find You in the secret place for this coming fews days. May i be filled with your unction on 1.2.09

Coming Home

Been away from both family and spiritual family for the past weeks. So much things on my mind, yet i feel some what a blank on what to do and what needs to be done. Kinda paralyzed, mixed with a bit of the delusions of being rested.

Gonna have my very 1st opprtunity to preach in my church service. “Officially” i can be called a preacher…

Really miss a bunch of people whom i hold dear, but haven’t had a chance to meet them since the start of ‘09. Amongst them,

• Julius whom i have stocked up so much gifts to bless him. 
• Serene who has always been such a loving friend back in the days when i was in ikea. 
• Alexis whom i have for some stupid reason kept a distance due to my immaturity in handling such a unique friendship. What was i thinking.. 
• Milly! Haha.. i know its been only a couple of days but really miss having a cute friend to just cheer me up with her adorable esthetics. 
• Most of all my beloved brothers from the four corners of the earth, Robin in Japan, Ray in Aus, Will in Sg and Eugene from UK of whom was so thoughtful to SNAIL MAIL me Christmas card!
• Cousin Yew Kit! 
• Last but not least Yvonne whom i’ve for another odd reason which i have to accept may never find out how i lost that friendship which was so dear.

 

Listening to Pr Edmund Chan’s Sermon titled “A Certain Kind of Process” in order to prepare for a regurgitation to the church.
Once again realigning my walk with Him. Survived my session with Noah yesterday. Worked out a new deal.
Into the 3rd month for this restaurant job, not sure where this will go just yet .

“Find time for Him in the midst of all that you do. Sit down. Sing. Worship”
 

The Dad i adore

I adore my Dad who himself found a beautiful wife and a beautiful mom for me! How? I have no idea? I mean i always hear from them how they found each other, how he wooed her, but sometimes i really wonder how my dad was able to court my mom who was such a P.Y.T in her younger days and still one who is aging gracefully to this day. From the stories i heard from my mom, tons of guys were already after her before my dad and some how, just some how God brought them both together, and till this day my mom and dad are still faithful towards each other despite the bumpy road of life. God i just so want to thank You for that! Hack they still FLIRT with each other still…

Oh this i still remember, during my younger days, my imagination was wild. I recall making a “BOMB/C4″, shaped like a block out of LEGO along with a LEGO remote to detonate it. I would then place the “BOMB/C4″ at the corner of the door awaiting for my father’s return from home. The moment i hear him coming in, i’d set myself in place ready for him. Right when he opens the door and places his suite case at the corner, i’d pull the trigger with a self made SFX “THEET” and then my Dad will go “BOOM!!” and “AIYAAH!” dropping slow motion to the ground, by then I’d laugh and laugh. The same thing happens over the days/weeks to come and he would not fail to entertain me and my imaginary “BOMB/C4″.

I’m so very proud of my dad! And these are just the little small things i recall, with so much i can really testify how blessed i am to have a dad like him. Although i argue with him at times and let him down, he would always find away to reconcile with me, not often but he has really tried at times. I mean through the years i find it harder and harder to communicate my needs to him or say “i’m sorry” or even a simple “i love you” which btw i used to say alot to both my parents in my younger days. I believe it’s the pride of a “Big Manly Man” that made my heart and my words cold towards him.

O Lord forgive me, give me a breakthrough!

 

Writing a “Love Letter” to my dad which has been way past overdue.
Having alot of things in my heart hoping to share more on this in order to bless u too
Can’t wait to testify once i have a breakthrough over this matter. 

“May you appreciate your earthly father for what he has done for you and not wait for him to make a move to restore what have been lost through the years, but you and i make the 1st move to love, by which in doing so pleases our Heavenly Father as well, and He will bring restoration to what was once lost”  

 

Some Random Updates

Below are some of the random thoughts/ideas/learnings that popped out during the span of the last 2 weeks.

• 
I fell in love with a girl clown dressed like a princess.
• 
I wanna be a professional clown
 and bring joy to children.
• I discovered that a “weak, nerdy, skinny, introvert, who gives short witty comments, old fashioned and mama’s boy” character in a stage drama can be very hilarious and lovable.
• 
Mahjong paper is a splendid way to draw out discussions and mind maps
.
• We ought to question our beliefs and react positively to the comments of others when they question our believes, no matter how offensive it may sound.

• I need to do something about my navigation skills.
• The power of Team Teaching.
• Worship is like a “tabernacle experience”.
• What it means to have a Spirit of Excellence.
• God really knows every detailed inch of me and He proved it to me. (Ask me how He did it, I’ll show you)
• Children Ministry is amazing.
• Stacking books flat down saves more space than vertical stacking.
• A little child praying for an adult is an amazing sight to behold.

 

Listening to a children worship album by the Clancys.
Reading “Be a Clown” by Turk Pipkin, “Secrets of The Vine” by Bruce Wilkinson.
Trying to be on top of things for a change.
Also i just started my new Job as a kindergarten teacher.

“May you bear much fruit.”

 

Words of Prophecy ‘08

These are the prophecies i’ve compiled so far this year, they are given by very credible leaders in the prophetic realm, and i’m truly blessed by such words of encouragement and really eager to see these words come to pass, though the journey to fulfilling them will not come easy. i trust in You, as it has been said may it be done.

“A picture that I see is a Pendulum like those from a grandfather’s clock, a pendulum that swings here and swings there, and it use to be like your life. But God is putting a steadying influence, you know a pendulum needs to swing so it can come into balance, and God is putting a balance into your life. You are one who swings here and there, but that’s your nature, God made you like that, but he is putting a steadying effect into your life, with the word of God and with the Spirit of God.”

“And so as he begins to do something in your life, do you know what that is?”

“It becomes a clock, and so God has called you to be a watchman. He has given you a watchman anointing, so that you can stand at the gate to watch what He is doing and what is gonna happen, and you say “Lord, I can’t even watch over my life, and I have a watchman anointing?” Yes it is a watchman anointing that is coming to you so do not be afraid and as you begin to learn to be faithful to watch the gates that God calls you to.”

“Two particular gates I think, one is the youth gate, and one is the children’s gate. As you begin to watch God is going to show you revelation, and you are going to declare it forth, so do not be afraid, do not be alarmed. Because God has seen your heart, you are are one who wants to go far for the Lord, and God saw that heart, but it has to go through a period of training.”

“There is already a period of training that has come and it is going to go further and tougher training and greater testing install. But like Peter, God is shifting you shifting you, and sometimes Wow the shifting is very hard and you are tempted to go the other way, but God says he has put you to be a leader and an influencer, and just as you go through the period of testing, shifted like anything you will be stronger like a little rock, and that is your name “a little rock”.”

“It is not like you now, but God is making you, has given you a Peter’s anointing, a little rock, a stabilizer and that is so unusual but that is what God is doing into your life, and so don’t go all over the place to look for me says the Lord, enter into my rest, enter into my rest, and as you begin to rest in me and worship me and seek me, know that I become the stabilizer, the balancer of your life. And I will show you.”

“You are yearning to know what lies ahead for the future, seek me and live. And as you seek me you will begin to know that I will begin to put stepping stones, stepping stones, I wont show you everything at one go but things will begin to show up and as you move into it the next stepping stone will come. Because I am laying ground work in your life for the future, because you are going to be come a pillar in the House of the Lord, just like Peter was. And I am putting stepping-stones.”

“And So begin to dwell in me, begin to rest in me and know that as you begin to do that, I am also your Jehovah jireh, the Lord your provider, so do not worry, do not worry of this season in time, because I am Jehovah jireh. And when you are at times hitting rock bottom, sovereignly I will cause finances to come into your hands, but be faithful, be faithful with what I have entrusted to you. Be faithful over the intake over my word. Be faithful in prayer, be faithful in worship. And as you begin to be faithful great balance is coming into your life, and you will see things from another perspective.”

“Lord I ask that you would put upon this young man, your mantle of leadership, Lord I ask that you not only give him a peter’s anointing, but you will give a johns anointing, someone who really loves to come into your presence and someone who really loves to be with you and to hear the secrets of your heart and having heard the secrets of your heart, let him retain them and become a stabilizer and a fire starter for you in Jesus Name Amen.”

“One more thing for L, God has given you the ability to think outside the box, so you are going to see things very differently from people, not only in work but in ministry too. It is that ability to look outside the box, and that’s is a very special gift, and it will take you to places and let you meet very interesting people.”

 

“And so Lord we just bless him Lord, we just ask he will grow and bloom and flourish and become and oak tree of righteousness, thank you Lord I just cut of from him, cut of from him, what is not of him, and separate unto him all that you have installed for him, let him be one who will bloom in you house in Jesus name, Amen.”

- P. Serena

 

“I just felt that there is tremendous potential that God has placed in you life.

A budding leader a budding preacher

Honor God, give you heart totally to God

God is going to anoint you and use you in some wonderful ways

As you continue to walk with God, humble yourself, humble yourself under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you and lift you up.

I see you preaching and teaching the word of God and ministering

There is a hand of God in your life and as u continue to walk with God there’s going to be confirmation. God is going to put within u a desire to serve him in a greater capacity.

I don’t know if your parents are Christian or not, but u are a gift from God to them

The word of God says broad is the way to destruction but narrow is the way that leads to life

There will be in the future where u are at the cross roads that u will either choose the narrow way or the broad way

And as you choose for Jesus, as u choose the narrow way

That path will lead you to a great glory a great light and the great blessings of God upon your life. And I see also the enemy trying to tempt you. To take the broad way, the easy way the smooth way, but remember what God has remind you this morning”

-P. Paul Ang

“i am yours, take me as i am O God”

“May you, those of whom closes to me reading this, 
stand as witnesses of His surpassing greatness of grace to me who is nothing, 
and spur me on towards His calling for me.” 

 

A Simple Request

Previously on the 4.30.08 i made a simple request to God “May i arise tomorrow with a beautiful sunrise and hear from You” and to my Joy i saw the most peculiar “sunrise” ever with a little something-something from Him who never fails to deliver in abundance.

Here’s the account of it

As i was looking to the east at predawn, i saw nothing but clouds, it started drizzling even as i was reading His word to me, but i did not doubt in my heart that my request was in vain at all. As i continued reading, the skies started to light up in its usual hues of blue but clouds very much blanketed the sky, “I said to myself it would show up” held steadfast to my conviction and even told Josh who was with me at that time, “Wait! it’ll come”.  

Then it happened, from the east hues of red & orange started to spread beyond the hill. It was still cloudy, my guess was the sun would not show. But the orange hues started to spread out unhindered by the clouds and before i knew it, right before me was an extensive “Sunrise Aurora”! The sun was absent from sight but streamers of orange and yellow began to show up, it was as if the sky was on fire. I turned to Josh and exclaimed “Praise You Lord!” and before i could repeat that praise, what i saw behind awed me. 

I saw one of the most complete, biggest rainbow in my life standing right before my very eyes. 

I requested a sunrise, received cloudy skies, drizzles, a flaming sky & a rainbow of covenant.
That’s my “God of the How much more”.

I’m relieved i finally got this posted, i stand to testify of His Goodness
“El pls don’t forget this k, you seem to be very forgetful”

“May you discover His covenant of faithfulness & fret not”

 

 

He Will Speak.

Psalm 32

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will guide you with My eye.
Do not be like the horse or like the mule,
Which have no understanding,
Which must be harnessed by bit and bridle,
Else they will not come near you.

Many sorrows shall be to the wicked;
But he who trust in the Lord, mercy shall surround him.
Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, you righteous;
And shout for joy, all you upright in heart.

 

The thought that God is eager to speak to me, as in personally on a regular basis blew my mind. I mean it’s such a basic truth that i think i have taken for granted or have grown numb “thanks” to the lack of faith that He really does speak! Not just daily but as often as we are willing to hear Him out. Im really sorry for such a “like Duh!” entry here, but it’s like i found a new revelation hidden at plain sight.

Sometimes i hate the wrong impressions i get of God, forged through the years of POP belief, misinterpretations and stupid assumptions. I’ve come to even think that God plays the “Mysterious God” going about playing hide and seek just to make my life harder, speaking in weird riddles only the super spiritual can understand (like some wise sage/guru up on the mountains) thus leaving me clueless. But He tells us NOT to be like that, with no understanding, no understanding of His Heart, no understanding of His Love for us. 

Lord, i want to thank You for You will instruct, You will teach me & You will guide me in the way i should go. Lord have mercy on me! Thank You for Your grace! May i arise tomorrow with a beautiful sunrise and hear from You, Your words like honey to my lips, dew to the leaves. Thank You Lord.

 

Listening to “I’m in love with you” by  Joy Williams.
Finding relief & peace from an unsatisfied raging heart earlier.
Determined to work on my weaknesses and grow 

“May you hear Him whisper sweet nothings to you ear”

Random Scribbles & thoughts

Opportunities
Community business with Nick or Funcity with Aunty Janet, Freelance G.Design.

Love Ones
Eve Fong, Evonne, Natalie, Mom.

Friends
Rachel Yap, Julius, Darry, W. Loong, Allen, Christine, Ying, Alex.

Desperate:
To be loved, to be known, to be understood, for a life partner.

Saddened by:
The loss of Tarry, the passing away of an acquaintance, being left out, being misunderstood.

Required Initiative:
Discipling those entrusted to me, a desperation for the things of my Lord, to know the Word inside-out, a discipline prayer life and a closer walk with God.

Grateful to:
Miss Yeo, Pr Steven K, Pr Noah, Pr Victor W, Pr Serena, Kester, Andrea, Daniel, Albert, Victor L, Joshua

Adoring:
Pr Victor, Pr Noah & Florence & Baby Gianna.

Misses:
Kindergarden, Evonne, Pr Sandra, Pr Phoon.

Learning:
The Fear of God, How to be a watchman, to be sharp in my receiving and giving of prophecies, to be discipline and productive daily , what does it mean to be desperate.

Struggling with:
The need for attention, the need to attain recognition, habitual sins, being alone.

Praying for:
A breakthrough.