Thanks Dixie ^^”

His kindergarten days were his most sweetest & memorable ones. It was there that he discovered his interest in performing on stage and that his love for talking and self expression. Also his love for Art, as he learnt how to draw & color, spurred even further as his parents often praised his creativity. In this early stage of his childhood was also how he discovered feelings towards the opposite sex, as he had a girl friend/neighbor name Yvonne, whom he carpool with and mostly paired up with during line ups. The sweetest memory of he had of her was his 1st view of the rainbow with her during art class.

 In primary school, things started to change alot. As far as he could recall, the kids were mean to him, due to his mole, they teased constantly and called him names as “ugly” and “weird” looking, it didn’t take long before most of all his friends would think twice before hanging out with him. It may even be said that those early years of rejection scarred him pretty deep. With not much of a self-esteem already, he began his desperate search for acceptance and friendship. Concerning his studies, he was constantly at the bottom of his class when it came to grades, fails to finish his homework and every now and then taken out of class to see the discipline teacher and head master. “Rotan” & Public punishment/humiliation was a norm back in those days. By this it’s pretty much obvious that even at home his parents weren’t happy with him either, nagging, scolding & punishment was daily routine.

But Thankfully in the midst of all these trials in his primary schools years, God sent him a saint, his teacher Ms Yeo, a believer of Christ. It was her who showed him that “Only those who love you most and genuinely care for you will scold you and teach you harshly in order you become better and learn from you mistakes.”. It was also her who 1st truly introduced to him the idea that God loves him.

To be Continued…

Chinese New Year was not as i would have wanted it to be… could have planned it such that my days with my cousins be a more meaningful one. Oh well the world is full with people with just good intentions.

“O Lord, may i find You in the secret place for this coming fews days. May i be filled with your unction on 1.2.09

Gonna have my very 1st opprtunity to preach in my church service. “Officially” i can be called a preacher…

Really miss a bunch of people whom i hold dear, but haven’t had a chance to meet them since the start of ’09. Amongst them,

• Julius whom i have stocked up so much gifts to bless him. 
• Serene who has always been such a loving friend back in the days when i was in ikea. 
• Alexis whom i have for some stupid reason kept a distance due to my immaturity in handling such a unique friendship. What was i thinking.. 
• Milly! Haha.. i know its been only a couple of days but really miss having a cute friend to just cheer me up with her adorable esthetics. 
• Most of all my beloved brothers from the four corners of the earth, Robin in Japan, Ray in Aus, Will in Sg and Eugene from UK of whom was so thoughtful to SNAIL MAIL me Christmas card!
• Cousin Yew Kit! 
• Last but not least Yvonne whom i’ve for another odd reason which i have to accept may never find out how i lost that friendship which was so dear.

Listening to Pr Edmund Chan’s Sermon titled “A Certain Kind of Process” in order to prepare for a regurgitation to the church.
Once again realigning my walk with Him. Survived my session with Noah yesterday. Worked out a new deal.
Into the 3rd month for this restaurant job, not sure where this will go just yet .

“Find time for Him in the midst of all that you do. Sit down. Sing. Worship”
 

Oh this i still remember, during my younger days, my imagination was wild. I recall making a “BOMB/C4″, shaped like a block out of LEGO along with a LEGO remote to detonate it. I would then place the “BOMB/C4″ at the corner of the door awaiting for my father’s return from home. The moment i hear him coming in, i’d set myself in place ready for him. Right when he opens the door and places his suite case at the corner, i’d pull the trigger with a self made SFX “THEET” and then my Dad will go “BOOM!!” and “AIYAAH!” dropping slow motion to the ground, by then I’d laugh and laugh. The same thing happens over the days/weeks to come and he would not fail to entertain me and my imaginary “BOMB/C4″.

I’m so very proud of my dad! And these are just the little small things i recall, with so much i can really testify how blessed i am to have a dad like him. Although i argue with him at times and let him down, he would always find away to reconcile with me, not often but he has really tried at times. I mean through the years i find it harder and harder to communicate my needs to him or say “i’m sorry” or even a simple “i love you” which btw i used to say alot to both my parents in my younger days. I believe it’s the pride of a “Big Manly Man” that made my heart and my words cold towards him.

O Lord forgive me, give me a breakthrough!

Writing a “Love Letter” to my dad which has been way past overdue.
Having alot of things in my heart hoping to share more on this in order to bless u too
Can’t wait to testify once i have a breakthrough over this matter. 

“May you appreciate your earthly father for what he has done for you and not wait for him to make a move to restore what have been lost through the years, but you and i make the 1st move to love, by which in doing so pleases our Heavenly Father as well, and He will bring restoration to what was once lost”  

Below are some of the random thoughts/ideas/learnings that popped out during the span of the last 2 weeks.

• 
I fell in love with a girl clown dressed like a princess.
• 
I wanna be a professional clown
 and bring joy to children.
• I discovered that a “weak, nerdy, skinny, introvert, who gives short witty comments, old fashioned and mama’s boy” character in a stage drama can be very hilarious and lovable.
• 
Mahjong paper is a splendid way to draw out discussions and mind maps
.
• We ought to question our beliefs and react positively to the comments of others when they question our believes, no matter how offensive it may sound.

• I need to do something about my navigation skills.
• The power of Team Teaching.
• Worship is like a “tabernacle experience”.
• What it means to have a Spirit of Excellence.
• God really knows every detailed inch of me and He proved it to me. (Ask me how He did it, I’ll show you)
• Children Ministry is amazing.
• Stacking books flat down saves more space than vertical stacking.
• A little child praying for an adult is an amazing sight to behold.

Listening to a children worship album by the Clancys.
Reading “Be a Clown” by Turk Pipkin, “Secrets of The Vine” by Bruce Wilkinson.
Trying to be on top of things for a change.
Also i just started my new Job as a kindergarten teacher.

“May you bear much fruit.”